Good morning... it is good, cause that's the perspective I'm choosing now. I feel queasy and my head hurts and I'm tired and would have preferred to sleep without pain, AND it IS a good morning! I can see, I can hear, I have a loving father in heaven who gives us challenges to help us develop perspective and develop empathy. I have a solid roof and safe home, food in my pantry and even leftover cornbread to munch on. My queasiness' will go away, my head will stop hurting when my sinus pressure figures out how to go away, and sleep... well, I used to say I'll sleep when I'm dead, but I don't think that really will happen. I (my spirit) won't be in my body so I don't think I'll feel tired. It's kinda weird to think about, but maybe I'll just feel at peace and not yearning for rest cause my physical body will not be there 'til I'm resurrected.
I do enjoy waking up early and right now I choose to be grateful for this opportunity. My mind's not as full of thoughts as it was a couple days ago, so I'm not sure what to write. I'm always hesitant to write about my kids on here cause there's no taking it back and it's their life, not mine to share. They are amazing kids and this journey of life would be so boring without them in it. There's so many of us who struggled to start a family and infertility sucks... I think of a dear friend who's still single and I can't imagine her heartache and loneliness. Yet, amid all her struggles, she brings light and goodness to so many. Her mansion in heaven is going to be an amazing place! Her joy for eternity full!
I wonder at mommas who work full time and wonder how they make their family bond work. I feel so blessed to get to be home, yet I struggle with my kids too. Sometimes I think our bond was closer when we did homeschool.... yet as I type that, I'm reminded of "times and seasons." Yes, I know they are meant to be in public school and I can have a better bond with T since we have more space and less confrontation. I'm grateful for God's guidance on the best paths to go on with my kids and for his guidance in our moves, travels, and daily interactions. I'm slowly learning to be a more calm listener. Yes, there are days when I just feel annoyed, but even then, I'm learning to speak up... still comes out a bit rusty and not 100% kind, but I keep focused on one of the concepts from a talk from our last church conference... Just try 1% harder, Do 1% more, or maybe it's needing to do 1% less of something. God's interested in the striving to improve and the sincere desire of our hearts. I love that I get credit for trying and I need to apply that grace and mercy to my kids and others too! We all benefit from kindness... even a smile or wave can make our day better!
I grew up in a small town where we waved to people as passed cause we knew em. Then in the south, well... everyone waves! When I moved to UT, it was so weird to be in a small town and people not wave. I wanted to run back south, but knew that wouldn't fix anything. The kids and I would see how many people we could get to wave at us. It was a fun challenge and I still like to wave everywhere I go. More people wave in this neighborhood and it's a great feeling to have that connection with folks.
I remember my dad telling about waving to some guys who helped move water 'hand lines' (sprinklers in fields). Each summer, workers from Mexico would come to our town and help the farmers, then go back in the winter. My dad a +20 mile drive to work past these fields for years and realized that it would sure be hard to be working in a foreign country and not knowing anyone. Well, he saw these guys each day and one day decided to share some friendliness. He honked and waved. They looked at him confused as he passed the first few days, then slowly started to wave each day as he honked and passed. That little moment didn't cost a penny, didn't take any time from the task at hand, and brought a smile and something to look forward to each day.
Ya know those people in life who just seem 'happy'? Yes, they've had struggles.... it seems more than most, but they spread joy everywhere they go. Maybe it's God's gift to them, their talent.. God says to ask for gifts of the spirit and joy I'm sure is one!
May we see, and be, God's kindness to others today.
~Sheree
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